Thank you.....

for loving me....

It is amazing what you can find when you least expect it......

Coming across a "latest favourite" song in my regular music search reminds me of the many gifts and blessings that come into our lives when we least expect it. And I have been, amongst the challenges I have faced, blessed beyond measure with many gifts of love, new friendship and growth...when I least expected it. I have had love enter into my heart in ways beyond measure, shown to me in so many significant ways by the many people who bless my life. During a time where I felt empty, alone and completely unlovable.....somehow, when I least expected it, love grew. The love for myself grew through some very hard work, a lot of "digging" and "wading" through some very deep muck....and then when I least expected it, as I let go of an unhealthy branch of my journey that hasn't been filled with love for quite some time.....I find love.

The Bon Jovi song "Thank You For Loving Me" touches the essence of my being.....the words spoken carry great weight ~

It's hard for me to say the things

I want to say sometimes

There's no one here but you and me

And that broken old street light

Lock the doors

We'll leave the world outside

All I've got to give to you

Are these five words when I

Chorus: Thank you for loving me

For being my eyes

When I couldn't see

For parting my lips

When I couldn't breathe

Thank you for loving me

Thank you for loving me

I never knew I had a dream

Until that dream was you

When I look into your eyes

The sky's a different blue

Cross my heart I wear no disguise

If I tried, you'd make believe

That you believed my lies

Chorus: Thank you for loving me

For being my eyes

When I couldn't see

For parting my lips

When I couldn't breathe

Thank you for loving me

You pick me up when I fall down

You ring the bell before they count me out

If I was drowning you would part the sea

And risk your own life to rescue me

Lock the doors

We'll leave the world outside

All I've got to give to you

Are these five words when I

Chorus: Thank you for loving me

For being my eyes

When I couldn't see

You parted my lips

When I couldn't breathe

Thank you for loving me

When I couldn't fly

Oh, you gave me wings

You parted my lips

When I couldn't breathe

Thank you for loving me

In my journey over the last couple years, and most especially the last eight months, I have needed the clarity and strength from others that the song speaks about ~ most especially for "being my eyes, when I couldn't see". It takes a special gift of ability to be someone else's eyes for them....to see the world for them when they can't see it themself. Especially when that someone struggles with needing and depending on others and instead prefers to do it on her own!

There is the physical sight that I have struggled with greatly, most especially over the last several months, and during that time I was blessed with the gift of patience, love and understanding.....of love beyond measure......a place where I could trust someone else to see for me.

And then there is the sight that comes from within.....what is often referred to as "insight". There have been so many times where I have struggled to find clarity. Where I have struggled to find "self" from within all the "rubble" and "muck" and during those times I was given strength, love, support and guidance to find my way.

So yes, to those who have shared my journey.......most especially the love that has come beyond measure....when I least expected it.....

Thank you.....for loving me.